I JUST WISH IT WAS EASIER.
I don't want to have everyone call me C anymore. C is not my real name. Neither is Darling. I just want to say, "here is my name. Use it. " But I can't. My name is unique. I can pretty much guarantee you don't know anyone else with the same name, so if by some slim chance you do know me in vanilla world and you read my blog, there is no way in hell you aren't going to think/know it's me. I don't care. I feel like sending everyone I know an email with the link to my blog. Then I won't have to constantly delete my browsing history or change my passwords. I won't care if someone is looking over my shoulder while I'm writing a post. I'll be able to let my little brother play Angry Birds on my iphone without the fear of a tweet popping up that he can't read.
I don't want to look on spankfinder to find someone. The only people I've found on spankfinder are men at least 40 years older than me, looking for a sexual relationship. WHERE ON MY PROFILE DID I GIVE THAT IMPRESSION? When I put an age range up, it's like a speed limit. It's a speed limit and I'm a cop. A mean cop. If you go over 37 MPH, I'm giving you a ticket. No getting out of it. Same thing with age. If you are over 37, I am not interested. If you could have aided in my creation, I AM NOT INTERESTED.
I'm not a switch.I don't want to switch. I think switching is great. Yah for people who know what they want. That is not what I want. I am a bottom. I am not a top. I am good at topping, but I don't like it. I don't want to do it. Please don't ask me. I have a problem saying no, so I'll say yes and then I'll hate it. And then in order to end it, I'll have to be mean and I just don't want to be mean.
I want to be able to walk down the street or into the library or a bar and be able to meet a guy that doesn't think I'm insane for wanting a DD relationship.
Here is what I'm looking for. Maybe we could all pull our resources and make this happen soonish. I've got a wedding to go to the first week of May. I'd like a date.
I want a man. Age 23-37. Attractive. Taller than 5'4. Able to have an intelligent conversation. Doesn't cringe at the thought of children. Has a good personality and a sense of humor. Knows the difference between their, there and they're. Can handle a DD relationship. Lives within a 30 mile radius of C-town, North Carolina. Celebrates holidays. Isn't already married. Has a good scolding voice.
Is that too much to ask for?
Hello again C, seems like lots has happened since I last passed this way. I definitely feel a serious scold coming on with all this "I want it now!" stuff ;-) ;-) two smileys quickly in place as I can't see your face. Believe me, you have already won a major prize in life's lottery being you, just enjoy it, meet lots of people and smile at them (not just the frogs). Life has a habit of giving you what you want when you don't expect or deserve it (Wordsmith's first law of eventuality). OK, I give up...attached is Prince William's mobile phone number - oh no, too late!!!
ReplyDeleteHi, C! I love that you know what you want, and that you are ready to embrace your whole self, not just a part of it. But if you can be a little patient, you might see wonderful things happening in your life. You've got excellent boundaries and good instincts. Now write your blog and live your life, and be the woman you want to be, with or without the perfect man to spank you. As dynamic and intelligent as you are, I have a feeling he's out there somewhere. Give him some time to find you.
ReplyDeleteWordsmith- I'm glad to see you around here again!! Yes, a lot has happened. Always something. Hey, no scolding. I said this was a rant. I warned you before it happened. It's like warning your Top before a tantrum. It's a get out of jail free card!!
ReplyDeleteScarlet- you made my night. A huge smile is painted across my face. I will do exactly as you suggested. He'll find me!!
C, I love the way you express yourself. I'll be following your thoughts from now on, darling.
ReplyDeleteHello Aunty, Thank you!! Expressing myself is one thing I do not have a problem with :)
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog this week, and I even created an account in order to comment. :) I have had the same problems/issues you've been having with spankfinder. Sure, I've met up with a couple of great spankers...but nothing long term. About half of the messages I've received are from guys that want me to return the favor or become their sex slaves. Um...no thanks.
ReplyDeleteWow, didn't mean to turn this into a rant of my own. Just wanted to let you know you are DEFINITELY not alone :)
Jess, you made my night. Not because you are also having a crappy time finding "spanks" on spankfinder, but because you created an account JUST to comment. I like comments a little bit :p
ReplyDeleteCrossing my fingers and knocking on wood, but I have a date next weekend to meet up with someone from spankfinder. Really hoping he's not actually a crazy!